alone

i feel alone. at work, i am alone. i am not a suburbanite software developer. i am not a 9 to 5, golfing, video game playing, resort hopping, corporate art loving, conservative dubya clinging, unimaginative, beer drinking, pseudo hippie, dave matthews listening, tobacco chewing, deer hunting, chauvanistic, xenophobic, frightened, holier than thou, greedy, corporate suburbanite. why? why is it this way? and it's everywhere. even our hospitals are creepy corporate places where good doctors with creative minds are relegated to staff positions while the crud floats to the top. and from the top they establish a culture that awards only the most simple minded. it can't be money. having money doesn't explain all of the faults. regardless, i feel alone. i'm surrounded by these people and i can't breathe. i want to do something significant - something that makes a difference. i really don't care if this corporation or any other "initech" corporation ever makes another penny - none of it is going to help humanity. f*ck it, i'm going for a jog on the treadmill. at least we have a gym at this gig.